(I tried to make this picture look somewhat decent but for some reason it just didn't seem to be working and this is the best I could get it)
So, unfortunately, as near enough always, I must apologise for my absence on this blog the last couple of days. Ever since I have my week off I'd been feeling really good, I'd found my head in a really happy, chilled out, laid back clear place and I was feeling good and optimistic and I was feeling all those things about my blog too! I was feeling motivated and inspired to want to get on here and post everyday and during my week off work I felt excited to write and create the posts I was uploading. And it felt good. But sadly that of course, didn't last very long at all. Come Wednesday morning I'd only really been back in the real world for two full days and I had some really upsetting news (that I may mention in a different post in the future) and I've been feeling really almost broken hearted and disappointed and angry and frustrated and upset and confused and overwhelmed and panicked and freaked out by it. It's left me in a pretty bad state the last couple days. I spent all of Wednesday fighting tears at work and in the evening once I got from home I sobbed all night. I had Thursday off and I sobbed all god damn day and I just couldn't control it and stop myself long enough to be sit and write a post. The only thing I could do was distract myself from the thought of it all with haul videos on YouTube and reading a book and every time I stopped watching or reading I was crying again. It was awful! Anyway, feeling all cried out and even though all this horrible dread and worry is still with me, I've calmed a little bit and I'm thinking a little clearer and I've talked about with a few of my friends and such and I've got an exciting day off ahead and I'm not letting this ruin it for me!!! Anyway, I'll try keep the rest of this post short and sweet, considering that long ass apology.
So, like I mentioned briefly above, I've been reading, thank god! It's been a long while since I've actually truly really read a book properly. But something I took great comfort in the last time I was in a hard place that made feel so upset I needed to be distracted otherwise I'll cry, was picking up a book and reading and reading and reading until it felt okay. I do love reading but it can be a struggle to find the time and not only that the ability to focus on the words and actually stay awake. I've slowly come to realise and accept that I'm a morning reader, I like to sit down in the morning with a coffee and read a book. But I very rarely get that time. Anyway Thursday i had a day off and found that time I also realised how much I really needed that nice long reading session and it got me feeling inspired to look at my shelves and see what I want to read! So here's my list of my current TBR books! (From the bottom up)
1) the brothers Grimm : Grimm's complete fairy tales
2) Homer : The Odyssey
3) Hunter S. Thompson : The Rum Diary
4) Lang Leav : Lullabies
5) Four Seasons (it's a book of poetry about the four seasons with no particular authors, just various poets)
6) (which isn't pictured above because I forgot about it until I opened a draw a few moments ago) Anne Rice : Interveiw with a vampire (the vampire chronicles)
So that is what I currently at the top of my TBR list. I hope you like the random collection of genres I've got going on here... I like to try different genres.
What are you guys currently reading or what's your favourite book? I'd love to read your recommendations and stuff, so do please drop me a comment below, letting me know :)
Thanks for reading